up and awake. dealing with a flu thats endless flowing. figuring out whats with my life. production production production. media law and regional cinema test.
staying up figuring whats love. define love. who you love. do we even know if its love that we're feeling? is it love we're embracing? waht is blind love? does love constitute trust and sincerity. of the soul's counterpart?
what is me that i feel? i can't let go nor cry. endless tears shed in my life. i can't close nor start. i can't neither anything. cos i lost it all.
my dearest. ever since that day you told me. i was enlightened and banished to earth. for i dropped so fast and down. everything flashes past me in a blur. of hatred, vainty, lust and thought. in the name of god. purify me, for i've sinned. for another person i hoped to cleasne. and relieve of the torment.
tear my body apart and rip my heart out. cut me limb by limb and skin me alive. hear me scream as u put my nails out. drown me in a pot of boiling sins. i really don't want to feel hurt.
hurt is too strong a word. pain is too little a word. i concur.
let me die and be rebirth from the depth of ashes. fresh start i should have. purififed soul i should have. but sadly, i've nor to begin with or pardoned.
keep me in this sanctuary of mine. to reflect and vomit upon. my gulit and pleasure. of silver and gold.
feeling a tissue in my nose and hairs in my crack.
