vodka & cornflakes

2007-06-27T15:30:00.000+08:00

3 32 pm.

struggling to believe.
to keep afloat of things of me.
the spins and crashes i can take.
its the anticipation and what i don't give a fuck about.
the hiding of facts and enticing fags.
i inhale and exhale.
and whats left.
counting smoke and puffs.

feeling the green monster.

2007-04-17T23:50:00.000+08:00

11 52 pm.

i've no idea for a while.
no random thoughts.
no inspirations from non inspirational things.
no jumping down from way up above.
landing on a pool of marshmallows.
words are superfluous.
when all it takes is one act.

my mind's empty.
but only filled with you.

feeling butterfingers.

2007-03-29T02:12:00.000+08:00

2 13 am

and in all the nights.
all in all.
i see you ever so.
whispering into my ears.
the secrets of the slient night.
and i hold you close to me.
breathing down your very neck.
tasting this new found novelty in my life.

feeling loved.

2007-03-19T00:09:00.000+08:00

12 12 am

in the horizons of the everlast.
the depths of the cold abyss.
a shimmer of light glimpse through.
that bounces off the endless sky.
and descend upon.

feeling depthed.

2007-03-12T22:01:00.000+08:00

10 02 pm

if only i should.
if only i could.
if only i would.

now its all.
i do.
all for you.
you lift me up.

feeling blissed.

2007-03-09T03:36:00.000+08:00

3 37 am.

love still lives in my wounded heart.
i found her.
(=

feeling happyness.

2007-03-03T04:55:00.000+08:00

4 56 am.

heartfelt.
the pursuit of happyness.

feeling sleepy.

2007-02-27T04:07:00.000+08:00

4 07 am.

sometimes i cry so much from bleeding.
after all the blood i have shed.
whats left are my selfless soul.
without.

feeling coughed.

2007-02-27T04:05:00.000+08:00

4 06 am.

whenever i see ur name.
on the msg you sent to me.
i can't but smile.
silly me.
would u even turn to say hey.

feeling yesteryears.

2007-02-24T01:11:00.000+08:00

1 12 am

you should watch.
as i paint with my blood.

feeling coughed.

2007-02-23T03:33:00.001+08:00

3 33 am.

flowers falls in the wind.
the god of flowers weep.

feeling gastric.

2007-02-20T12:30:00.000+08:00

12 30 pm.

being in your presense
i feel like the hopeless romantic
i was.
again.

feeling dimmed.

2007-02-16T20:10:00.000+08:00

8 10 pm.

eyes of ruby.
touch of gold.
heart of beauty.
passion of fire.
tears of gem.

feeling sleepless.

2007-02-13T22:54:00.000+08:00

10 54 pm.

primary school friend
(=

feeling late

2007-02-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

10 46 pm.

im all alone and standing over the ledge.
standing overand trying my best not to forget.
baby i forgot to take my med.

feeling placebo.

2007-02-11T22:40:00.000+08:00

10 40 pm.

i don't think i'll ever be loved

feeling posted.

2007-02-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

10 02 pm.

i never felt more alive than when my heart is breaking.

feeling funny valentine.

2007-02-09T01:52:00.000+08:00

2 04 am.

close to you.
its a wish.
its a want.
its a desire.
its sought after.

feeling superman

2007-02-08T22:29:00.000+08:00

10 32 pm.

standing on the bridge
im waiting in the dark
i thought you'd be here by now.

feeling bleached.

2007-02-08T04:52:00.000+08:00

4 52 am

we stretched out both of our arms
pass through the clouds, straight to the sky
even though we touched the moon and the stars
we still cannot find the truth.

feeling oblivious.

2007-02-08T04:48:00.000+08:00

4 48 am.

clubbing.
united loneliness.
clubbing.
ultimate desperation.
clubbing.
guys who can't dance and sweat alot.
clubbing.
guys who can't dance yet make it seem like they can.
clubbing.
horrible.

feeling mambo.

2007-02-07T01:59:00.000+08:00

2 34 am.

unless i grip the sword
i cannot protect you.
while gripping the sword
i cannot embrace you.

feeling hushed.

2007-02-07T01:54:00.000+08:00

1 55 am.

if i were the rain
could i connect to someone's heart
as the rain can unite
the eternally separated earth and sky.

feeling you

2007-02-03T00:09:00.000+08:00

12 o9 am.

every time i lights up my fag.
i think of you.
everytime i took a puff.
i imagine you beside me.
everytime i turn around.
i wished you were there to hold me.
everytime.

feeling 12 11 am.

2007-01-31T01:08:00.000+08:00

1 11 am.

hold me by my hand and walk me like a child.
i miss.

feeling neglected.

2007-01-29T22:32:00.000+08:00

10 37 pm.

i was brought to a paradise.

feeling dejected.

2007-01-26T19:07:00.000+08:00

7 08 pm.

this is the story of a boy.
needing a closing chapter.
before he lost himself.
within his own demons.

feeling psp.

2007-01-15T00:47:00.000+08:00

12 48 am.

missing you from miles away.

if only you knew.

feeling depressed

2007-01-07T14:45:00.000+08:00

2 45 pm.

i have no idea where im going with this.
i don't feel like im a part of anything.
i wished you'd grow old with me.

feeling liberated from nothing.

2007-01-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

10 16am.

coming from the lips of an angel.

parting is such deep sorrow.

i live my life.

in scars and bad memories.

someone once told me.

living in memories means you're old.

maybe thats how i live my life.

to feel alive and frigging kicking.

feeling disoriented.

2007-01-03T00:25:00.000+08:00

12 25 am.

the new year.
will someone deliver me from all this.
im breaking.

feeling no glory

2006-12-24T11:21:00.000+08:00

11 22 am.

i asked you what you want for christmas.
i secretly prayed that your answer would be, "me."

feeling christmas, not desired.

2006-12-17T23:47:00.000+08:00

11 47 pm.

deception is brutal.
photographed beautifully.
in its purest form.

feeling pure

2006-12-17T23:42:00.000+08:00

11 42 pm.

there we were.
just sitting admist crowd of people.
as you leans forward.
i let you.
your hand caress my waist.
seeking comfort.
i hold your hand in mine.
you lunges forward gently.
i tensed up.
you whispered into my ear, oh so softly.
i feel your breath.
i let in and turn my head towards you.
you moved down and planted a kiss on my cheek.
my left hand hug your head in me.
oh the tender.
oh the joy.

oh wait.
i realised.
i was just sitting here.
eyeing that lovely couple there.

feeling emptied.

2006-12-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

11 18 pm.

trails of rain drips.
echoes of the wind whistles.
ringing silently through the night.
everyone's sound asleep.
everyone's dreaming of someone.

feeling cant take my eyes off

2006-12-15T03:33:00.000+08:00

3 30 am.

a dance so beautiful and sincere.

i'd never dare to imagine.

lest dream.

all i do is embrace.

feeling i adore.

2006-12-13T23:58:00.000+08:00

11 59 pm.

i feel so.

lets start over.

feeling the cardigans.

2006-12-10T23:56:00.000+08:00

11 56 pm.

the long bus ride home.
of endless trails of lights and sounds.
with the music in your ears.
blacking out atmosphere and people.
sometimes i wonder.
do i take the bus to escape from everything.
or im just not accepting.

feeling the long ride home.

2006-12-10T16:35:00.000+08:00

4 35 pm.

i seek comfort in the darkness of the movie theatre.
hoping someone will come along and take the empty seat beside me.
reach over and hold my hand in hers.
whispering to me that im not alone.
neither is she.

feeling postsecret

2006-12-10T04:57:00.000+08:00

4 59 am.

truckloads.
the ghost of you and me.
the tender touch.
the sensual joy.
the little sparks of happiness.
the moments of emptiness.
the gaze into the deep blue eyes.
the soft slender hair.
the gracefullness in your steps.
the charisma in your talk.
oh how i adore.
oh how i wonder.

feeling cornflakes and vodka.

2006-12-02T23:42:00.000+08:00

11 43 pm.

your beauty's a piece of art.
admired by many.
adored by one.
me.

feeling skeptical.

2006-11-30T00:10:00.000+08:00

12 12 am.

confessions of a deprived boy.
of 19 and growing emptiness.
not of loneiness but of missing that.
of what's gone and what's not.
i rarely looked back and see.
but i've been doing that every single day.
standing alone in the shadow of the only another.
so long and good nite.

feeling apathetic.

2006-11-27T01:27:00.000+08:00

1 28 am.

Fuk Xing Luk commences in 9 and 1/2 hours time.

feeling anxious.

2006-11-14T23:16:00.000+08:00

11 21 pm.

will you love me when im gone.
the sweet smelling of you.

feeling abandoned.

2006-11-11T01:34:00.000+08:00

1 35 am.

you i admire.
my living example.

feeling admired.

2006-11-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

11 36 pm.

kiss me.

feeling emo.

2006-11-08T22:57:00.000+08:00

my perspective.
change me.
please.

feeling loaded.

2006-11-07T12:30:00.000+08:00

12 31 pm.

matchstick that strikes and burns.
of misery and solitary.
illuminates the darkest night.
pure sorrow and joy.
the sadder of the none.
in my diary.
i wrote you of the beautiful memories.
that i conjuncted.
leaving the ones not behind.

feeling growing up.

2006-10-29T22:24:00.000+08:00

10 25 pm.

i cry at nite.
hoping that someone will know.
and give me the attention.

feeling crave

2006-10-29T14:09:00.000+08:00

2 09 pm.

what should i do.
i've nowhere to go.
no one to turn to.
everyday i take a step back.
into memory lane.
of misery and betrayal.
i betrayed myself.
im like this cos of me.

feeling batched.

2006-10-27T00:05:00.000+08:00

12 17 am.

i dont know what to type.
my life has no purpose to serve no more.
im but, a mere existence.

feeling bagged.

2006-10-21T23:47:00.000+08:00

11 47 pm.

i've lost something so dear to me.
i've loved something so dear to me.
i've been to the worst and back.
i've enjoyed the best part of life.
now i've nothing.
nothingness; the epitome of my solitary self.

feeling hit

2006-10-21T01:27:00.000+08:00

1 27 am.

specialist shoot is coming.
Fuk Xing Luk.
its like those kinda pain that creeps slowly.
eating you alive.
slowly but surely.
you begging to end it fast.
yet it crawls.

i need to see.
i need the vision.
i need to visualise.
i need to visualise the vision to see.
i need to frame up.
i don wanna disappoint Perennial Pictures.

feeling fogged.

2006-10-19T23:07:00.000+08:00

11 07 pm.

i once had my true love placed in front of me.
but i didn't cherish it.
now that its gone.
i've live to regret it.
its the most painful matter in the world.
if god would only give me another chance.
because if you'd to put a time limit to this love.
i'd want it to be as long as my heart beats.
so.
just cut my throat.
leave me to die.

feeling.

2006-10-19T19:23:00.000+08:00

7 24 pm.

love's just another word.
its how you accentuate your sincerity.

the blank space here is like the blank in my heart.
its just there.

its just there.

feeling shot with a blank.

2006-10-18T00:09:00.000+08:00

singing audition by Perennial Pictures.

location - EarShot Cafe @ The Arts House.
Friday - 3 to 10 pm
Saturday - 12 to 5 pm
Looking for - chinese female singers
Theme - Chinese Oldies
Required - prepared songs to sing.
Free - 1 recording session, Demo CD of original song sang, copy of film after completion, name credited in film.
Interested parties please email to perennial.audition@gmail.com for pre-registration.
Please include your name and contact number and time you want to come down for audition.

2006-10-12T13:37:00.000+08:00

1 37 pm.

Super 16.
Standard 16.
HDV.
HD.

are these are just formats.
of greater latitude and better quality.
but it all sums down to the capabilities of the DP.
and im sure we'll all do our best.
2006 cinematography class.

recently i've been so warped up in my own head.
and i guess yest really did me good.
the talk that came too late but nevertheless.
the train ride home that seems so.
the alone time for her and me.
the initial stages of love in its novelty.
the me that i thought i murdered.
its all coming back.
not karma.
not expectations.
not.

feeling realisitic.

2006-10-02T22:26:00.000+08:00

10 28 pm.

my funeral is on my wedding.
its the day when i got married to my dead lover.
cos i stabbed myself in the heart to be with her.
would you do anything for the one you love?
i would.
i know i would.
because i know its worth it.

feeling breezed.

2006-10-02T00:48:00.000+08:00

12 50 am.

i wanna die so much.
cos this immerse pain in me is too much.
i cant breathe.

feeling tired.

2006-09-25T16:41:00.000+08:00

4 42 pm.

the resonance of her soul resides in me.

the emptiness in me bottoms up.

feeling endlessly

2006-09-15T00:56:00.000+08:00

12 56am

that one special.
you found her.
you fight for her.
you put her in front your whole life.

because i know the juice is worth the squeeze.

feeling hynoptised.

2006-09-15T00:33:00.000+08:00

12 34 am.

why's my heart always crying out to sappy Hollywood love stories.
even though when i know its all not true.
maybe im wishing for something.
just, maybe.

because i love the way you looked at me.
loved.

feeling kept in a jar.

2006-09-13T17:45:00.000+08:00

5 45 pm.

i dream of suicide attempts when im alone in my room.

jump.

all the way down.

feeling ground zero and below.

2006-09-13T15:25:00.000+08:00

3 25 pm.

every night.
i cry myself to sleep.

feeling lost without you.

2006-09-10T23:32:00.000+08:00

11 32 pm.

now that you're gone.
was that you who just walked past.

just like you said.
make her feel gulity and miserable for the route she chosen for herself?
im such a selfish bastard yea.

companionship can be found not just in others, but friends too.

feeling loved, not.

2006-09-09T02:53:00.000+08:00

2 53 am.

i lie awake.
praying hard everyday.

feeling jaded.

2006-09-07T01:39:00.001+08:00

1 39 am.

im soaked from all these tears.

feeling drenched.

2006-09-06T01:14:00.000+08:00

1 14 am.

no hero in her sky.
no love in her story.

the man who needs alot of care.

the man who cant take his eyes off himself.

the man who's just like he said.

the man who forgets the breeze.

the man, most of the time.

feeling de-loved.

2006-09-04T01:39:00.000+08:00

1 42 am.

i couldnt sleep.
i thought i could.
but i still did.

its cold in here.

feeling miserable.

2006-09-02T01:30:00.000+08:00

1 32 am.

worth.
a person's worth.
of love.
of trust.
of sincerity.
what am i not.
what am i worth.
am i not worth.
someone, please just stab me.
or love me.

feeling helpless.

2006-09-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

12 01 am.

love yourself before you love others.
but i don't love myself.
i feel nothing.
im hollow.

feeling hollow.

2006-08-31T01:01:00.000+08:00

1 01 am.

been helping out ADFP thru days man.
early morings late nites.
i need a break!
haha but i love productions.
raw acting, emotions.
and the mosquitoes.
for the nites and forests.

will someone still love me in the morning?

feeling depressed.

2006-08-26T22:38:00.001+08:00

10 38 pm.

i love the one i loved.
will someone give her back to me.
please.

feeling pathetic.

2006-08-24T02:50:00.000+08:00

2 53 am.

i guess i came clean.
but did i do whats right?
or was it wrong my.
what i do wrong, love her?

feeling wronged.

2006-08-20T04:29:00.000+08:00

4 . 29 am

lets us find, once again.
the innocence between us.
that we once have, had.
a dream.
where under the moonlight.
we swore our love to each other.

feelin devastated.

2006-08-20T03:16:00.000+08:00

3 16 am.

you, who pride yourself before others.
my goddess.
whose one touch.
turns iron to gold.
my love to grief.

but i ask myself why.

because everyday, my heart it put to trial.

love is not about receiving.
love, i've traded many times.

but loved, i have, but once.

feeling useless.

2006-08-19T02:19:00.000+08:00

2 15 am.

lookin at this photo.
whats the 1st thought that come to your mine?
look! its hippie and indie!
but no, its acclaimed director M. Night Shyamalan and Christopher Doyle, HKSC!
just look at them.
standing side by side talking bout the movie.
next scene, next shot, next set up.
hows it gonna be, the mood, the theme, the feel.
how the talents are gonna act, gonna bring forth the meaning of the film.
who wouldn't dream to be in their positions.

feeling .

2006-08-16T23:07:00.000+08:00

11 03 pm.

watched Lake House.
shot badly.
acted badly.
storied badly.
overall - 2 & 1/2.
oh man, i thought it was some sappy love story i can emo to.
in the end, its like Slient Hill down 10 notch w/o the scary parts.

and i got my 1st lomo camera today!
an action sampler.
CyberSampler Chrome!
so cool so sleek.
wakakakakakakaka.
next up is a colour splash!

feeling photos.

2006-08-16T00:54:00.000+08:00

1 47 am.

got back from playing street.
ended with a cut on my toe.
a pair of spolit opened tongued shoes.
how cool are these.

head's throbbing.
body yelling for sleep.
needed in school at 10 am tomorrow.

will somebody love me.
will somebody care for me.
will somebody hold me.
light the burning candle thats been smeared with ignorance.
pity the soul for its dying novelty.

im so feeling holidays.
yet still have cinematography 16mm showreel to do and submit.
not to mention the song slides.
man, maybe i've to reshoot due to depression that day.
"i really have no idea what to do".
specs meeting this thurs.
re shuffling of advisors for groups.
are we still keeping us?
cos im just getting comfortable with him as our advisor.
so i'll rather we not change.

cinematography.
what a word.
simple yet hard to achieve.
omg.

feeling under.

2006-08-14T02:12:00.000+08:00

2 08 am.

up and awake.
dealing with a flu thats endless flowing.
figuring out whats with my life.
production production production.
media law and regional cinema test.

staying up figuring whats love.
define love.
who you love.
do we even know if its love that we're feeling?
is it love we're embracing?
waht is blind love?
does love constitute trust and sincerity.
of the soul's counterpart?

what is me that i feel?
i can't let go nor cry.
endless tears shed in my life.
i can't close nor start.
i can't neither anything.
cos i lost it all.

my dearest.
ever since that day you told me.
i was enlightened and banished to earth.
for i dropped so fast and down.
everything flashes past me in a blur.
of hatred, vainty, lust and thought.
in the name of god.
purify me, for i've sinned.
for another person i hoped to cleasne.
and relieve of the torment.

tear my body apart and rip my heart out.
cut me limb by limb and skin me alive.
hear me scream as u put my nails out.
drown me in a pot of boiling sins.
i really don't want to feel hurt.

hurt is too strong a word.
pain is too little a word.
i concur.

let me die and be rebirth from the depth of ashes.
fresh start i should have.
purififed soul i should have.
but sadly, i've nor to begin with or pardoned.

keep me in this sanctuary of mine.
to reflect and vomit upon.
my gulit and pleasure.
of silver and gold.

feeling a tissue in my nose and hairs in my crack.

2006-08-05T04:00:00.000+08:00

3 55 am.

helped out NP Idol finals.
congrats to winners.
seeing both Singapore Idol Live once and NP Idol.
experiences are totally different.
but working terms are about the same.
i think we pulled it off fairly well.

photography.
cinematography.
masters of none.
improve improve improve.
prove myself!

photos i took which i incorporated texts into.

feeling degraded.

2006-07-27T04:43:00.000+08:00

4 38 am.

men lead lives of quiet desperation.
i beg to differ.
but what do i sought after.
what do i enquire about.
what am i interested in.
am i stagnant.
am i a thing.
do i describe myself it or who.
do i give myself an identify.
who approves my identify.

feeling hard to understand.

2006-07-27T04:22:00.000+08:00

4 18 am.

what define "love"?
what define "trust"?
what define "feelings"?
what define "truth"?
what define "right"?
what define "mistakes"?
what define "scars"?
what define.

2006-07-26T02:03:00.000+08:00

1 59 am.

you complete me.
but i cnat find 'you'.

2006-07-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

10 21 pm.

what went wrong.
i remember faintly lying on our bed talking bout the future.
bout holding hands and walking through our lives together.
long as we can love as we should live the life we want.
what went wrong.
you so fucked up my life.

2006-07-02T18:45:00.000+08:00

6 42 pm.

hello leslie's blog.
how long have i not been here.

so many things happened recently.
my life span out of control.
i lost touched with felicia, my alter ego.
now im lost in the abyss of jealously, hatred and everlasting regret.
choked on the sins of those sins not.
slapped by the touches of reality.
jolted awake by the immerse amount of novelty love.
oh bothers.

i never understood before.
i never knew what love was for.
my heart was broken.
what a feeling in my soul.
im yours and certainly you're mine.
i never saw it happening.
i just couldnt take the hurt.
what a feeling.

i knew what i wanted.
im here for you.
if you only had
it may be over.
but it wont stop here.
i held your hand to sleep.
i knew you well i knew your smell.
its my dreams you took.
remember me.
remember us and our used to bes.
i've seen you cry seen you smile.
i knew your fears and you knew mine.
i love you and i swear its true.
i'd spend a lifetime with you.

love burns and leaves traces.
of characol marks and bitter taste.
tingling spines and crumbling confidence.

feeling love burns and leave a trace.

2006-06-16T04:49:00.000+08:00

4 47 am.

theme: friends.

agenda: define good friends.

conclusions: i miss having good friends.

feeling lost.

2006-06-04T23:56:00.000+08:00

11 55 pm.

we learned from mistakes we made in our lives.
then we seek redemption asking to cleanse our souls.
purify us and become sinners not.
truth is always said, to lead us towards the right.
but often, it is left alone in denial of most.
and rather to seek not, instead to stray away from.
thrashing blindly with arms stretched in front.
the 3 loves we celebrate in all lives.
joy love peace.
it is what holds and breaks a bond.
a bond of family, or friends, or relationships.
yet who really can say they, actually embrace and hold true to their heart.
the pledges we take in our lives.
to uphold and to trust.
to stay through and be faithful.
none, not one person.
not one but only he who is contended.
hatred exists not tenderly.
but in harsh forms of humanity.
when Pandora opens her box.
worlds darkens, skies drifts.
not where is one place innocent and joy.
but where one is truly enlightened.
envy brought along, stirs but the darkest desires in man.
what we can't get, no one will.
wrath is.

2006-05-24T23:03:00.000+08:00

11 pm.

maybe we should have this set of rules for watching movies.
cinema ethnics.
cant stand people "whispering" beside you about how this and that bout the show.
esp couples.
damm those people.
cant ya'll just watch it in peace?
and leave the questions till after the show?
-_-
and do you have to "whisper" out the characters' names when its shown?
seriously.
i wish they invent this chair that flips the person out
when they do some shit ass thing
that disrupts other viewers' indulgence in films.
bloody assholes.

feeling milky wave.

2006-05-04T21:09:00.000+08:00

9 07 pm.

im a proud owner of a Fantastic Four VCD.
brought it just to watch for entertainment.
like a kid buying his first comic.
only that my comic prints moves.
wakakakakakaka.

ciao ppl.
apologises to anyone.

2006-04-27T01:07:00.000+08:00

1 06 am.

hi mono.
im back.
been near a month since i entried.
don really know what to blog.
or rather just don want to
or perharps love.

school's started.
hurray, year 3.
i don even feel like one.
when you're a year 3 and in FSV.
are u supposed to be a not bad filmmaker?
am i?
die la.

i good enough to be a production assistant.
im not a theory person.
but its practical and theory that enforce a good production.
im working towards that.
ima catch up.
i don want to lose to others.
im so disappointed in myself.

i don want to not bring justice to myself.

"you're taking the class everyone wants to take." (c) 2006

maybe i just suck.
come to think of it.
maybe its just one of those.
when i sit down and and start thinking.
actually i thought i was at this level.
but actually im at this level?
ever thought i was thinking from this level
but actualy im thinking at this here?

putting in double of what others make up with their intelligence.
slacking in half of what other make up with their competence.

feeling half the shutter speed.

2006-03-31T14:17:00.000+08:00

2 17 pm.

we were adversaries.
but we were also professionals.

feeling combed.

2006-03-11T21:51:00.000+08:00

9 53 pm.

home on a sat nite.
pitch went alright on fri.
feature length were told we seem.
the rest of the pitches of other specs groups seems interesting.
this strongly shows who's in what role now.
and i see who are my adversaries now.
i always celebrate healthy compeition.
and i look forward to other DP's production.

screening of Drama Production Project 2.
saw all the projects.
and it exceeds expectations of any other.
it was good.
the story, editing, cinematography, acting, directing.
i saw my own production, Blow Wind Blow.
i wanna improve technically.
i wanna support my production crew.
i wanna not let myself down.

evreyone loves.
trying to find their counterpart in another out there in this world.
but how much are we willing to sacrifice.
but how much are we willing to love.
two people in love is sweet.
but without communcation nor trust.
what can one build a relationship on.
secrets and grudges.
admiration and seclusion.
do we grasp what we don't see?

love kept in a matchbox.
once was red, now its black.

feeling peaced.

2006-03-03T00:10:00.000+08:00

12 10 am.

confessions of a emo me.
fuck all those shit around me.
everything around me should just pissed and die.
get high and die that way.
toe cancer.
choked on your own vomit.
get shot at in the head.
in the chest.

school's officially over after friday.
pitch's next friday.
film?
i honestly don know.
after drama production project 2.
so many things have come to light.
does it matter?
does it value?
im honestly out.

no one treats me like this.
fuck all these shit.

feeling a hole in my head.

2006-03-02T00:16:00.000+08:00

12 17 am.

Death, you're my bitch lover.

2006-02-27T15:42:00.000+08:00

3 43 pm.

A DP is an artist who paints with light.

2006-02-21T02:42:00.000+08:00

2 43 am.

true love is the soul's recognition of its counterpart in another.

2006-02-21T00:17:00.000+08:00

12 18 am.

this blog is still alive.
it just hasnt been fed with junks by the blogger.
sem end marks the end of year 2.
year 3 is up.
yet so many things to finish and worry about.
unfinished yet worrying.

filmmaking filmmaking.
im goin bangkok in march!

pitch for specs is in march.
convince them of our raw idea.
what would it be?
my favourite - film noir?
thriller.
love.
melodrama.
adrenline rush.

german is finally over.
every week of torment.
german conversation.
german pronoun.
german expressionism.
everything german.
german is in my blood.
maybe i should keep a german beard like Hilter.

well-like or sought after.
which would u rather be, by people?

feeling im 2 and a quarter heart down.

2006-02-10T01:08:00.000+08:00

1 10 am.

Film Noir.

German Expressionism.

sub from GE - Kammerspielfilm. (chamber play film)

cinematography.

plot.

indulge me.

2006-02-06T01:33:00.000+08:00

1 29 am.

i wonder how good am i.